Confession

Seriously, I don't know how to talk.
No matter what I say, it seems to be wrong.
So I end up staying silent, keeping my mouth shut!

I used to say everything I want, pour everything out without thinking much.
In the end, I lose so many things in my life.
So now before I say anything, I keep asking myself so many questions.
Rereading and rephrasing...

"Should I tell them about this?"
"Is it right to say this out?"
"Am I using the right words?" (If I used the wrong word, missunderstanding will arise.)

Honestly, I still care a lot.
I care just because I'm still feeling so afraid to lose anyone who is important to me.
I don't know what is right and what is wrong.
Tears won't lie.

I feel myself like a failure at this moment.
Sorry for being a big disaster in your life.
Sometimes, I think I came to the world just to complicate people's life.
I really hope I never appear.

Things change, people change, everything changed.
I'm so sorry that I don't even know who am I now...
I feel so tired dealing with all of these.
I just can't get over my past! I don't know how to get over it...

If it was God's decision to bring you away from me, I won't say anything but to accept it.
There's nothing more I can do.
Once again, I am seriously hurt...
And I can't deny that I still care for you that I still don't feel like letting go.
I'm afraid of losing you...


p/s: Sorry for the emo-ness. Guess I'll be regretting for posting this up but I just wanna be true for once. God bless. I don't even know whether doing this is right or wrong. I don't know how to talk. Forgive me...

Love Hui ♥