Back To Studying

So yeah, my class started on Wednesday and my first subject is Bahasa Kebangsaan. Tell you what, I am the only student taking it. All of them have already got exempted from it. In the end, one on one with my lecturer. How cool is that? My lecturer is very nice though. He told me he ever went to Brunei for three times but he found it to be very boring. The only best thing is the Nasi Katok there. He regretted for not buying enough of it.

Guess it's kind of an advantage for me being the only student in Bahasa Kebangsaan A. Actually we need to write 1500 words essay for assignment which is to be done in group. Now since I am the only one, I'll just need to write about 350 words. For the oral, my lecturer said it will just be a simple interview. He asked me not to worry even if my Malay is not very good. As long as I attend the classes, do all the assignments given, and go for the exam, I should be fine. The final exam is only 50%, the rest goes to the test, quiz and assignment.

Next was my moral studies class by the same lecturer. He told us about all the assignments we need to do in this short semester, individual and group. Deadline is week 6, that is the end of July. Moral studies is actually almost the same as GP we took in SMSA last time.

Lastly was my Malaysian Studies class. The lecturer is an old woman but she is just so active and funny. She always does those ugly faces as well as jumping and running in the lecture room. She is a Chinese and a very understanding lecturer. She said she doesn't really believe in tests and exam so she won't be giving any tests or quiz for us to do. Just class assignments. She doesn't wanna torture us and she thinks we should enjoy in studying. She let us watch a Malaysian movie named "SEPET" which talks about stereotype thinking. The movie is great, you should have a watch too.

I only had Malaysian studies class yesterday as my Bahasa Kebangsaan and moral studies class were cancelled. I stayed back to have a group discussion with my group mates. We got the topic "wars". Then today, I should be having my Bahasa Kebangsaan class too but the lecturer texted me in the late morning yesterday, telling me it's cancelled because he had a meeting to attend. How great is that?

So I am free today but I woke up late, at around 10+AM. My housemate and I cooked for lunch, then another two friends came over to eat together. After that, I watched my series a while and was feeling lazy so I went asleep for a while again. I should be doing my individual moral studies assignment you know? Lazyass! At 5.30PM, I went to jog with my two friends at the nearby Komanwel Park. After home, I skyped with my sister. I didn't call home today, nothing much to talk. After bathing and having my dinner, I did little of my assignment. At least the day is not fully wasted.

Guess that's all. Sorry for so many meaningless details. Good night, readers! God bless ya all.

Love Hui ♥

Last Free Day?

Helloooooo!! I'm here to share my happiness with you all again. Today session only lasted for about two and a half hours then we were totally free after that. I knew some more new people again today. I knew one beautiful lady from Jakarta, Indonesia. I told her I am a Malaysian from Brunei, then she said I should mention to them earlier that I am international so I can join with their group and go out together to explore KL some of the times. I got compliments from two persons regarding my English speaking as well. I am very happy about it. Never thought of it I guess? But I think I should thank Wen for it because she was the one helping me the most with my English!!

Well, I am not the Sheau Hui in Brunei when I am here. I talked a lot and I asked the seniors many questions. I mean, I am not feeling afraid of talking to the others. I am being kinda proactive. Today I just knew that our Uni is not the same as the others. What I know from the others is that you have to choose the modules you want, then arrange your own timetable, and you will be having lecturers and so on with students from different courses. Well, in IMU, everything is fixed already. So I will be having class with all the students taking N&D, and I do not need to headache about choosing modules and arranging my timetable. That's the info I get from the senior. However, the first rule of IMU is DO NOT listen to your seniors. LOL

I had a lot of great time here. I enjoy every moment now and then. Today I went for groceries shopping again with three of my friends. One of them is my housemate too, the rest are living at the next block. Every night they invited me for dinner together but nah, I'm cooking myself still. Maybe next time when I started to get lazy? Hah!

These are some of my new friends. We were waiting for the LRT that time. I was very sweaty after a long walk from the Carrefour.

Tomorrow short semester will start officially. My class will be starting at 10.45AM tomorrw but ends at 6.30PM. Hope it will be another fun and great day! God bless ya all.

Love Hui ♥

First Day of Uni

Well, everything ended earlier than the time stated. We were free since 3PM but reached home only at around 4PM. Everything was okay and great. I had a English Diagnostic Test, in order for them to know my English standard. It has 4parts: grammar, vocabulary, sentence structure and reading skills. I think I did extremely bad for my vocabulary and my reading part didn't went on so well also. But it's okay. I tried my best. =)

So tomorrow I only need to be at Uni by 10.30am for the campus tour only. After that I can go home. Wee~ Anyway, my N&D programme will only be starting in September, when more new students coming in. So what am I gonna do during July and August? Just focus on my MQA subjects (Bahasa Kebangsaan, Malaysian Studies and Moral Studies). For my other coursemates who already taken it during their SPM have to take alternative modules which are Media literacy, Health & Literature, as well as English Composition Skills 1, only if they have been exempted from it.

My Malay is lousy, super lousy. But it's okay. I know I can do it! I believe in my lecturers and myself. Gonna fight hard for it so I can get rid of it fast. Oya, I met a lot of new friends by the way. Kinda many people take N&D. Out of my expectation. One more thing, almost all of them are year 1992 as well, same as me. I'm not the oldest! LOL

Lastly, I think further my studies in another country actually strengthen my family bonding. Everything is great and I feel blessed every now and then. Thank You, Jesus! That's all for today!

Love Hui ♥

Last Day of Holiday

Today I went to Carrefour to explore. I reached there at around 11AM but most of the shops were still closing. I don't know why... What I saw is a lot of foot massage shops with ladies standing outside calling guys, like prostitution. This is what we hardly see in Brunei. And also, why are they all selling Chinese books? I can't really find any English books at the bookstores there. Boring you know?

Seriously, others than groceries shopping, what more can I shop at there? I am still finding Popular bookstores here but I guess not at this area. Have to ask my cousin next time I guess. I only explored that building today. Didn't know where else can I go.

Everything's okay so far. The happiest moment is when I see my mum laughing whenever we are skyping. Yesterday, I saw a kind of laughs that I never seen it before. I can feel that she is feeling extremely happy and having fun. But she said there's no need to call home everyday. O_o Well, I'll just call whenever I'm free or whenever I have to.

Tomorrow have to be at Uni by 9AM. Not so early, BUT we have to stay until 6PM like that. Whole day briefing. I believe I will be tired in the late afternoon because I got very sleepy these two days at almost the same time. I will sleep early tonight. I am being kinda healthy at here. Wake up early, sleep early, three meals a day. Except for exercising, but gonna start soon in July.

That's all for today I guess. God bless me to have another great day tomorrow!

Love Hui ♥

New Chapter

Well, let's start from the day I arrived here yeah? My flight delayed for 30mins, arrived here around 5.30PM. You know what? My very very old sport shoes' base went opened. So what to do? I went to ask for rubber bands from a cleaner aunty at the airport. She didn't know what is "rubber bands" then I showed her my hair-tied rubber band. KIK.

Took a bus for about 2hrs to reach the hotel. In between, we shifted to another small van. Eldest brother talked to the driver using Cantonese. He is a very friendly old man. His daughter is studying medical course in Russia now and he kept wishing me good luck. Reached hotel only at 7.30PM. After that, we went for our dinner straight. I missed my mum when I was eating suddenly. This caused my appetite to be a bit low. Then we went to Sungai Wang there to do a little shopping and bought some groceries for my future usage too. I think around 9+PM, we went back to the hotel.

Actually I was going to stay at the hotel with my family on the first night and moved in my place only on the second day. But instead of King size bed, we got 2 single beds. How to sleep for 3 people (eldest bro, dad and me)? Also, brothers' friend who is living at Sri Petaling will help me to brings my luggage over to my place on that night so that we don't need to be so rushed the next day. Since I have the key and everything, why don't I just sleep there straight away? Right? I went to the LRT station myself to meet my family the next morning.

Went for breakfast but most of the shops haven't started their business during that time. So in the end, we just ate at an Indian restaurant. Not bad though the food there. But I have no idea why my appetite went so low. I can't even finish a small plate of fried mee. Carrefour supermarket the next destination. Did the rest of my groceries shopping and bought myself some more furniture too. The supermarket is like Brunei Giant, everything is kinda cheap there. I like it. There is many other shops in the building as well but I didn't get the time to explore more. It was around 11:15PM that time. I only left with my bank account to deal with. But during lunch time, no taxi will want to bring you due to heavy traffic jam. So everyone rested at my place for a while and went back to Imbi.

After lunch, eldest brother and daddy brought me to the bank nearby while 2nd brother and sis-in-law went to shop. If not mistaken, it was almost 3PM after everything was done. Brother and daddy then brought me to the monorail station and I went back to my area alone. I went to the wrong direction though. I need to go left but I went on to the monorail which was going right. I felt something's not right so I asked a Chinese man beside me whether I had really got on the wrong one. I need to go for the monorail at the other side. I went out at the next station right away and a young lady automatically came to me to tell me how to go to the other side. Thank God!

I need to change to LRT to get to my place after that. But I can't find where is it. I'm worried I will get the wrong one again so I straight away ask the people around. Lastly, I was home safely!! Feel great for God's blessings!! I started my cleaning right after that. Done everything around 7PM, took a rest and bathed then wait to skype with mum and 3rd brother. We skyped for one and a half hour. Talked so much. Brother said mummy was very happy after that. I miss her very much!!

Guess all of you are very interested in knowing whether did I cry or not eh? Well, before I left home, tears dropped when I hugged my mum. Mummy was going to cry too but she held it in and told me many things. She is a strong mum! I felt like crying after I was out of my Kampong's simpang because I know I am not going to see my mum in person so soon again anymore. It's not a vacation. But I tried not to think about it and was okay then. When I read my brother's tweets, felt down again because my home is getting emptier now. I hope they are doing fine over there. When I was doing my cleaning and saw mum's photos with me, tears dropping non stop. Seriously, whenever I think of my mum, my eyes go teary! Even now. But I'm fine though. Maria's present made me tears dropped too. But all of these times, I don't think I was totally sad when crying. I smiled. =)

I didn't really sleep well on the first night. Not used to it. But last night I slept kinda soundly. I had a very beautiful dream on the first night too. Oya, I wanna thank Franz for visiting me on the night before I left, thank maria for sending me off at the airport right after she arrived there from Kuching, thank Fufu for the text, thank Han for calling me and wasted all his credits until zero, thank wen for trying to call too but I rejected it, and thank to the rest who greeted me at Facebook. Big thank to my family who give me so much loves and cares! I miss everyone back in Brunei and I'll be back real soon. Time flies and December will be here very fast! I can't wait for it now!

What a long long post. Till next time. God bless!

Love Hui ♥

Tik Tok Tik Tok...

Excluding today, ONE more week to my brand new life!!!

Guess I'm not really ready yet but oh well, who cares? I don't want to think about it now and annoy myself with worries. Everything will be very fine and fun! =)

God bless.

Love Hui ♥

Stay Focus!!!

Yes, I gotta stay real focus on this, a promise I made for myself. Not so easy but the first step is to believe in myself. I CAN DO THIS!!! Negative thoughts, can you all please just f*** off my mind? Stop coming around and annoy me!! Urgh...

Love Hui ♥

Confession

Seriously, I don't know how to talk.
No matter what I say, it seems to be wrong.
So I end up staying silent, keeping my mouth shut!

I used to say everything I want, pour everything out without thinking much.
In the end, I lose so many things in my life.
So now before I say anything, I keep asking myself so many questions.
Rereading and rephrasing...

"Should I tell them about this?"
"Is it right to say this out?"
"Am I using the right words?" (If I used the wrong word, missunderstanding will arise.)

Honestly, I still care a lot.
I care just because I'm still feeling so afraid to lose anyone who is important to me.
I don't know what is right and what is wrong.
Tears won't lie.

I feel myself like a failure at this moment.
Sorry for being a big disaster in your life.
Sometimes, I think I came to the world just to complicate people's life.
I really hope I never appear.

Things change, people change, everything changed.
I'm so sorry that I don't even know who am I now...
I feel so tired dealing with all of these.
I just can't get over my past! I don't know how to get over it...

If it was God's decision to bring you away from me, I won't say anything but to accept it.
There's nothing more I can do.
Once again, I am seriously hurt...
And I can't deny that I still care for you that I still don't feel like letting go.
I'm afraid of losing you...


p/s: Sorry for the emo-ness. Guess I'll be regretting for posting this up but I just wanna be true for once. God bless. I don't even know whether doing this is right or wrong. I don't know how to talk. Forgive me...

Love Hui ♥

Gift From God!

I am originally pessimistic but I know I am so much more better than before already. I am trying hard everyday to be positive but it ain't easy at all. It's hard for me not to worry anything...

I am lucky enough to still have someone in my life who keep on trying to adjust my negative thoughts whenever I'm down. The only one who always manage to make me laugh when I'm already crying. This is really the best present God has given me.

I know one day, this friendship might stop as well, but at least not now. I hope the day won't be coming so soon to me. I am not ready to lose another closed one, the only one left... Thanks for being a good listener whenever I need one. God bless!

Love Hui ♥