It Was Just A Dream

Lately, I kept having nightmares that were creepy/scary/bloody. I don't know why... But they are making me feeling really uncomfortable. I hope no more next time, like seriously...

God bless!

Love Hui ♥

心想

“有如此的汤匙，自有如此的叉子来搭配成对。”
-- 这应该是我听过最可爱的比喻吧？^_^

今天你突然来袭在我的脑海。
我回忆了很多很多我们的珍贵片段。
虽然我不知道你近来好不好，
虽然我不知道你想我不，
不过说真的，我还挺想你的。
我有点想念你的样子，有点想看看你。

但是再怎么想你，
很抱歉，我不会也不懂如何给你开口。
我也不明白为什么的。
不知道以后的我们会如何呢？
不管我们的关系变得如何，我相信...
我会一直都记得你，时不时的想起你。
希望你一切安好。
我真的想你了，朋友。

Love Hui ♥

感触分享

昨晚终于看了《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》
好多好多的回忆画面重新浮现在脑海
那些年的时光，不可能再次拥有了吧?

人真的很奇怪
有时候就真的因为是最爱的，最不想失去的
所以选择了停留在不清不楚的阶段
宁愿一直不去完全拥有

“有得必有失”
这句话是罪魁祸首吧？
“拥有”就是失去的开始
你认为呢？

世界之所以会那么复杂
一切都是人们自己造成的
但当每个人都有着相同的思绪时
你还能如此的简单化吗？

有些话藏着不说，真的不会造就以后的遗憾吗？
世上真的有很多事是没有一定的答案的
也没有什么事是一定的绝对

Love Hui ♥

Should I?

Only if I give up...
Everything will no longer be a problem.
But why me again?
Why can't my life just go on smoothly for once?
You gave me hope...
But at the same time, You throw me a lot of difficulties...
Can't You feel how tired I am already?
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME???
I am really so fucking tired...

Love Hui ♥

Life

Everything has its good and bad
No matter what decision you make, you'll regret for the other ones that you didn't choose
Never try, never know
Just don't give up before you really give it a try
Don't be afraid to face all the obstacles
Should believe in yourself and have faith in God
Just pray everything goes on smoothly
God bless

Love Hui ♥

Simple Great

Yesterday Maria and I went to jog at my Kampong area for an hour. Or should I say we walked? Then we went back home and do some workouts again. I taught her figurobics but she was not serious at all. =.=

At night, we planned to go Mumong swim again but we wanna meet Yuki before he went back to Miri so we cancelled it. I don't think we really ever talked like close friends before? I mean no shyness and everything.

Everything was simple, everything was great. Nothing's too complicated. Sometimes you just need something simple to temporarily shut down your complicated mind.

Love Hui ♥

The Way I Treat Myself...

See this?

Drinking and eating cold stuffs when I'm still having my cough and when it is getting a bit worse... I just can't take good care of myself eh?

How long have you not seen me in my spec? Haha So ugly. Doing my workout everyday is kinda tired. I am not very hardcore for it this time. Didn't even really play my hula hoop well also. Feel kinda weak lately because I only try to have a meal everyday. I sleep for the whole day just to ignore my hungriness. At night, I can't really sleep early because I sleep too much all the time.

My lifestyle is super messy and unhealthy I know... But it's not going to last forever so, oh well...

Love Hui ♥

即使一生不能相见，又有什么关系。我明明知道，世间的事有多少不能让我们满意。能够相识相知，本身就是一种冥冥之中的缘。有一种酒一点点就能醉人，有一种爱一点点就能温馨，有一种人一相识就难以忘怀，有一种心就算不常见面也会彼此挂念直到永远，认识你真好！

我喜欢早上起床看见你发给我的信息；我喜欢发冷了有人叫我穿多件衣服；我喜欢在我心情不好时，有人陪我，逗我开心；我喜欢生病时有人会提醒我吃药，喜欢有 人叫我早点睡；我喜欢每天有人和我说晚安；我喜欢偶尔有人问我“今天如何呢？过得好吗？”； 我喜欢早上醒来有你的早安，问我“睡得好不好？” 一切的一切，都是简单的幸福。

朋友就是：偶尔会为你担心，向你关心，替你操心，想你开心，逗你开心，请你放心。朋友之间，懂得关怀才是难得。伤心时不妨和我说；痛苦时别忘了跟我讲；有病时别忘了通知我；困难是要记得请教我；失望时要想起还有我；开心时更不要忘记我。朋友的定义，就在于此。我们是朋友，这就够了。

All taken from Facebook, just sharing. Anyway, my mood has got better already. Thanks to God! I don't know since when, but you have became the only reason for my smiles. I'm glad that I have you in my life although I know one day, you'll be gone as well...

Love Hui ♥

God's Plan?

My own careless? Or God's arrangement?

I accidentally pressed thing wrongly when I was trying to lock my phone. Now, I am not able to on it already. I don't have the PUK code. Brother said I have locked my own SIM card myself. I have to settle it at DST but unfortunately, tomorrow is Friday... So yeah, have to wait until Saturday to fix it.

How do I feel? Hmm... If it happened on the other times, I believe I will go crazy right at the first moment. But because these few days my mood is a bit not right, so yeah. I could take some time being alone now. Something's wrong with the inner me for about 3 days already. I just couldn't figure out what's the matter. So I think it's God who wanted me to lock my phone. So yeah, it's okay for me not having a phone to use now. Just that... hmm...

Anyway some random conversation with my mum to share with you guys:

妈妈：我的脚好像进刺。你眼睛看到，帮我挑出来。
She handed me a needle. It's not the first time I did this already though. But my mum feels the pain this time so...
我：我不敢咧。
妈妈：酱都不敢，还讲做医生。
我：我没有要做医生咧。
妈妈：牙医也不是一样。
我：现在我没有要做了咧。还有医院有麻醉药的咯。

Funny? HAHAHAHA I feel kinda funny though. LOL Alright, that's all. Bye.

Love Hui ♥

A Tiring Saturday...

I received this about a week ago but no one realized it since it was stapled together with my brother's letter. I only knew it when my sister handed it to me on Friday night.

I wasn't curious about it at all because I know what it is already. So I went to get the small parcel with my brother yesterday morning.

Parcel from UK, guess you should know from who by now? Yeah, it's my birthday present that came late. It actually reached Brunei on 27th February itself but I only got the notification a week later.

A little cute bear! But the postage for it is very expensive... *sweat*

Are you able to read the words yourself? (enlarge the photo if it's not clear enough for you)

Alright, now back to the topic. It should be a surprise actually but why wouldn't I got curious about everything eh? Maybe it's fated to be failed? My brother just leaked it out during the gathering for Franz's birthday on Wednesday night. He thought the present is lost and it will not be arrived to me so yeah... Anyway, I still thank Han a lot for everything. I never thought of it though. 你真的很有心，谢谢你！=)
That's all about the present.

After done doing stuffs at KB and Seria, we went to Bandar in the afternoon together with May. Brother wanted to hand in his forms regarding the Uni stuffs. When it was done, it was about 4PM already. We then went to The Mall to buy my stuffs.

I went to the Faceshop and bought many things for myself. I have the discount vouchers from them as a birthday gift last month and it only valid for a month time, so I better finish using them.

Things I bought! Hah! I'm started to worry of getting old now, so yeah... I don't want ugly skin. I still wanna be pretty even when I'm 30 years old already. LOL

The receipt! Look at the price!! Haha luckily there's discounts. If not, I won't buy anything as well. Since I purchased a lot, I got free gifts from them.

Not bad eh? Hmm... we then left for our dinner at Shabulicious. Brother's treat so hooray! We shopped at Kiulap Hua Ho a while and reached home at 9PM. Early right? I was very tired already since I didn't really had enough sleep. So altogether I has spent BND$220 in a day. How great...

I have to stop here and hit the bed now. I still have a gathering to go in the afternoon... Nights!

Love Hui ♥

Cooking

Knowing how to cook is not hard, but knowing what to cook everyday is challenging.

There's nothing to be proud of if you can cook well, but when everyone finishes everything you have cooked for them, then that's what you should be very happy for. =)

Love Hui ♥

Looking Back

I think recently I get more and more in love with blogging. It's actually still interesting as it always is especially when you have something about life to share with. But unfortunately, many people stop doing it.

These two days I spent most of my time reading back all the posts I have written down since the beginning. I have blogged for more than 2 years now and there's kinda a lot to read. I was just wondering what I have actually noted down here about my life experiences. I feel embarrassing for some of the things I said and the vain photos I posted though.

Looking back at my past, I worked so hard during my A level just for my dentistry course, my future. I held on it for long enough. But who knows what will happen in the future? I guess no one ever thought that I will waste a year working and still unsure about my own future now. I faced so many obstacles for my choice and in the end, I finally gave up and changed my path to dancing which I hesitated a lot. However, now I'm not going for that as well...

Everything are just meant to be I think. If my first choice wasn't anything with such a high and strict requirement, I don't think I would fight hard enough and got good grades for my A level. Even though a year or more is wasted, but I learned a lot during this period. I heard so many people complaining about Uni life and how hard is it to live all alone and so on. But hey, I got no friends and family with me as well most of the time. I encountered hell lots of bad things. I guess God loves me much and has a special arrangement for me. Compared to the others, I'm internally weak. Somehow, all I have went through might help me to feel easier when I really have started my Uni life. That's what I think.

Due to my weight problems last time, I started to stay at home and refused to go out. When time goes by, I even get lazy to socialize with the others. I started to keep things inside and enclose myself in my own world. Maria keeps telling me it's not a good thing and she feels that I will get mental problem anytime soon. Honestly for what she said, I have thought of it myself before. But I don't feel like changing anything now. I'm happy being alone so far.

Reminiscing the past, my life was really full of tears... Being someone pessimistic is really suffering. But I'm glad there are people who I love that keep me holding on with my life.

Dear God, I'm not afraid of a hard life because you told me nothing is impossible. I'm just scared of having a life which keeps on hurting me miserably inside. You are the only one who can see all the scars that I'm having and You know exactly how much am I still able to afford. I thank You for what you have given me, I thank You for everything. I love You, Jesus!

Love Hui ♥

It's March!!

Finally, I have to start dieting again, that's what I promised myself. When can I really stop saying that anyway? No idea... I have a feeling I have to diet for my whole life man... hahaha

My only birthday present this year. Franz drove to my house on Tuesday night just to pass this to me. I like it very much, especially the wordings on the cover. Thanks a lot, Bunkey!!! =D

I have been at home for few days already and I feel... err... nothing much? Everyday I just do some housework, sleep, watch series and playing iPad. I think the time I spend with the iPad is more than my brother using it. It's like it belongs to me now. LOL I'm crazily playing Fruit Ninja so far. Can someone tell me how to break the record? Why is it so hard? If it's not my luck, I couldn't break it at all.

I didn't really spend much time on my lappy nowadays and so the social networks. My mum is using my lappy to watch her series every night now so I am not able to use it. But luckily I still have the iPad with me. I got nothing much to do with the social networks nowadays so yeah... it's getting boring. I just go and update my friends' news at Facebook from time to time for a little while.

It's kinda late now. I should have go to bed. Someone will nag me for sure for going bed this late again and again... I don't know. I realize that I really like to force myself stay up late even when I'm tired and nothing more to do. I just don't feel like going to sleep. I don't know why... Maybe it's the best time for me to think? Yeah... I just like to think too much.

That's all for now. Will try to update again.

Love Hui ♥