New Year 2012

Sorry for not updating much at all guys. I am really lazy even when I have things to blog about. Well, 2011 has passed just like that and now it comes the 2012. Honestly, I am not ready for it. Time is just running too fast that I'm worried I'm not able to catch up. But no matter what, the time won't stop running just for me. So, accept it!

Let's have a summary about what had happened in my 2011. I had great CNY, I started working, I met a lot of new people, I got rejected by the University I applied, I got lost for my future, gained a lot of weights and had serious depression, cried in every month, trying super hard to lose weight but turned out to be nothing, had some memorable experience that I am not able to say it out here, permed my hair for the first time, had great Christmas, lastly and most importantly, I have somehow changed.

There are two persons that I wanna thank at here. Overall, 2011 was not really treating me right. I had a lot of hard times. Firstly, I wanna thank my mum for always listening to me, helping me and protecting me whenever I don't feel so right. At the same time, I feel sorry for making her worried for me all the time. She is really the best mum in the whole world for me. I love her so much.

Secondly will be someone mystery. Let me named this person unknown. Unknown, likes my mum, always be there for me, helping me, listening to me and talked to me when I had no one to go to. There's always things that I am not able to tell my mum as well, so yeah... Unknown had really helped me went through a lot.

Of course, I have to thank God for sending these people for me. Without Him, without them, I think I might not be here already. I wish that they will still be with me in 2012. I don't wanna lose all of them. I have changed in some ways. I don't really like to talk that much anymore, kinda lazy to socialize.

I get to know more about myself in 2011. I have learned a lot about people nowadays. Human nature should I say? People tend to remember your bad things and forget about all the good things you have done for them. Why? Because they have taken everything as granted. Eventually, they ignore how you feel. They don't even care about it. Don't expect anyone to spend times on wiping your tears, trying to put a smile on you. No way. You gotta do it yourself. Everyone only loves themselves. Anyway, I am trying my best to forget about the bad and remember the good.

To tell the truth, I don't like the world, I don't like the people nowadays, including myself. So I seriously don't wanna be a human again for my next life. I wanna disappear completely and just be the air. Life is fucking hard and annoying some of the time...

Guess I'm getting a bit unstable so I should stop here now. I'm fine. I will still try hard to be strong and move on. God bless everyone to have a happy new year 2012 and stay healthy!!!

Love Hui ♥