Few more hours later then it will be 2011! New year with new resolutions!

1. meet new people

2. work and earn money

3. be more stronger and independent

Since today is the last day of 2010, I wanna use this opportunity to apologize to certain people. I'm not gonna name it out who they are but I guess after reading, they will know who they are!

Well, I used to be a highly pessimistic person. I cried and being depressed for everything bad no matter how small the matter was. I know I still emo a lot nowadays but it's getting better already right? At least I don't show it out easily anymore. Recently, I have helped many people with their problems. Around 5 I think? I shared my own life experiences and tell them the ways I went through them. I tell them about my thinkings, trying to make them think more and further. I feel really really good and awesome when I get to help the others. But in contrast, if I am not able to help, I get panicked and helpless. I feel worried that I will be not able to minimise their pain and sufferings. I feel extremely hurt inside even though they may not be close to me.

I saw many things while helping. I saw them crying, torturing themselves, being extremely stupid and freaking negative. I know I don't have the right to say them because I was once like this as well. My friends have told me a lot and kept helping me but I just don't get it! I was really really super duper stupid!

I believe everything happens for a reason. I feel thankful for able to help the others. Although I don't like to remember all those memories, as long as it helps, I wouldn't mind to say it out! Now I know how the others felt when they were trying to help the stupid me! I'm seriously sorry for that. *90 degrees bow*

I know I'm still weak, and stupid sometimes. I might do the same mistakes again. But I will bear in my mind for everything that had happened. I will try to be stronger. I will try my best to handle my own things and solve it extra carefully with the right decision. I know I still have many problems inside which I don't say it out, but I strongly believe that I can do it on my own.

That's all I wanna say. Once again, I'm truly sorry for all those friends who love me so much. I wish you all have a great great 2011. Be happy always and most importantly, stay healthy! God bless ya all. Have a new life with a new YOU!

Love Hui ♥