♥ Monday, August 23, 2010
Life is really unexpected!
No word can describe how sad I am right now...
No one knows how scared I am right now...
Why? I don't understand why...
What should I do?
I don't know...
I really don't know...
I'm not happy...
I'm sad...
I'm worried...
I'm scared...
Is that because I don't deserve it?
Is it because I didn't work hard enough?
Should I really give up my dream?
I hope this is not real!
I hope I read it wrongly!
But it's impossible...
The breakdown for my Chemistry is A,A,C and teacher asked me not to think of the three papers anymore and focus on my paper 4 and 5. I don't know what to do!? What if I do badly for both papers later? Especially paper 5! I don't feel confident at all. It troubles me. But that is not the worst! The breakdown for my Biology is
B,A,B!!! At first, I really read it wrongly. I thought I got A,A,B! But Yi Xin told me it's B,A,B!! Happy at the very first moment, and get extremely depressed in the next second. I was trying to run after that. But teacher told me that if I got A for paper 4 later, for sure I will get A for it. What should I do? I really don't know... I can't stop crying... Why? Why is this happening to me? WHY?
I give up trying to be strong now.
Yes! I'm still the crying baby!
Just laugh at me, just hate me!
Say whatever you like...
I know I'm useless...
I know I'm stupid...
I hate myself
I dislike myself
Do anyone of you really understand me?
I'm tired...
I really felt like dying
But it's not the end of the world!
I wanna thank my GP mates for making me laugh just now. Although they will not be reading this but, thanks for making me feeling better. Thanks for your caring when I really need it...
Love Hui ♥
