God Is Good

First day of school! Sucks! I don't feel like going to school tomorrow, day after tomorrow, and the day after and after and after... Don't ask me why because I'm not going to say it.

Had a surprise paper 2 GP test today. Eyes hurt due to lack of sleep last night and so I was totally not in the mood for having a test. But what to do? Accept it! One of the data responses have done by us before last year but I forgot the answers. I think I have chosen the wrong question as well. I think the other one is easier. But forget about it! Just a test! It's over! Next week will be paper 1 test. Hate it!

Anyway, I need help! I'm finding a book. It was released 2 years ago. 【 夢．遊 Daydreamer 】written by Vanness. Anyone can help me to find it? I need it! Please...

I know you guys will be thinking that I need this book is because I'm too crazy over Vanness now. But up to you what you wanna think. I can't stop you from thinking in that way and I'm lazy to explain. I just need it!!

Still reading Vanness's blog nowadays. I read from the beginning. To tell the truth, I learn a lot from him. All about God and life... Believe or not, tears dropped when I read it. To be honest, I'm not feeling well recently and it's Vanness and God that saved me. It may be sound crazy to you but I don't give a shit! Vanness's experiences make me believe more in God and I really believe that God really do exist. I know God is somewhere around me. Listening to me, protecting me and loving me...

God is really GOOD!!!

No one in the world you can fully trust, not 100%! Even myself... But God! Everything happens for a reason. There's still a lot of things I have learned. Wanna know more? Visit Vanness's blog! (Link is available at the side) I thank God for letting me to discover all of these. I really wish I could say "thank you" to both the God and Vanness.

I really hope I could be a Christian now. But I have difficulties in telling my family about it. I will discuss with darling about it after she's back. I hope everything goes well...

I will continue praying, for myself, for Vanness, for everyone who loves me, for everyone who hates me... God bless!
God, you're good and awesome! Thank you... I love you!

-my wishes-

I wished for power to succeed, God gave me modesty instead to learn to obey.
I wished for health to do good, God gave me sickness instead to do better
I wished for wealth to be happy, God gave me poverty instead to be wise.
I wished for ability to be respected, God gave me weakness instead to need him.
I wished for everything to live pleasantly, God gave me life instead to to live with thankfulness for everything.
I haven't been given anything I wished.
But my involuntary prayer was granted, and I became the most blessed person.

-by a soldier, on a wall of a hospital.

I get this from the blog. Just wanna share with you guys.

Last thing, anyone who read this, please don't say it out in front of my family. I don't want them to know all about this emotional side of me. (They don't read my blog) And only for today, I show my true self, my true feelings... I'm sorry if you don't like it. But I was born to live for myself, not to please you. I just wanna be myself...

Sheau Hui is really changing now... I hope to a better one! Once again, thank you God!

Love Hui ♥